[Good spotting, Kaneki. This is indeed a loaded question.]
it kind of makes sense. like, it's not what you do, it's what you mean to do -- got that.
but there's a looooot of variations, and keeping them in mind doesn't come natural to me like it does to some people, i guess. i get lost somewhere in that tangly mess there. the thing about changing yourself, that's good to know, but it's... okay this is really obvious already, but the hypothetical person we're talking about here is me. so. i'm just kind of going through memories over here, stuff i know i've done, aaaaaand it's pretty steadily making me more and more sick to my stomach?
and i guess i really just don't see how you're supposed to move on after that. especially with all the holes i dug myself into. but knowing it's possible, that's good.
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Date: 2015-07-18 12:33 am (UTC)it kind of makes sense. like, it's not what you do, it's what you mean to do -- got that.
but there's a looooot of variations, and keeping them in mind doesn't come natural to me like it does to some people, i guess. i get lost somewhere in that tangly mess there. the thing about changing yourself, that's good to know, but it's... okay this is really obvious already, but the hypothetical person we're talking about here is me. so. i'm just kind of going through memories over here, stuff i know i've done, aaaaaand it's pretty steadily making me more and more sick to my stomach?
and i guess i really just don't see how you're supposed to move on after that. especially with all the holes i dug myself into. but knowing it's possible, that's good.