cawsforalarm | FOURTH CURSE: video

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FOURTH CURSE: video

[When the video turns on, viewers are presented with a Henry surrounded by leaves, with the summer sun peeking in through the branches -- seems he's decided to climb a tree for this broadcast, or maybe he was just chilling here anyway. In either case, the expression on his face is uncharacteristically somber.]

Heya. So... this is going to be, like, Serious Business Time. [He glances off somewhere into the foliage. Honestly, it seems like he's not totally comfortable with the idea of Serious Business Time himself.] I've been kinda mulling stuff over, and I wanna hear all your responses! [The smile flickers back for a couple of seconds, but it's gone just as fast.]

What do you think makes someone a bad person? I mean, just for you, like I said. ...Traits or whatever are fine.

…

Yep.

[And that’s how the video ends.]

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well. yeah. i mean, i wouldn't call them "realizations", more like... feelings that have kinda popped out of nowhere and i've never seen them before.

though i guess that counts as a realization.

yeah, i do care, NOW. but before a few weeks ago? not at all. like, "if me and my people are happy, then everyone else can die in a hole" not caring.

[And also literally putting people in holes, but he's too scared to put that in just yet.]

i guess i always knew i was missing something??? it was really obvious. but i didn't wanna deal with that, 'cause i thought i didn't need to. and now i think i do.

Did something happen, recently? You don't have to tell me what it is, if you don't want to.

well, if you mean "something" as in "did i do something bad", no. but i did kind of start to change my viewpoint on another thing that's only tangentially related to this, and everything sort of snowballed.

and now this post is a thing and there's really no going back anymore.

Well...talking about it helps. I'm sure you'll probably get a lot of different opinions about this, too.

But I guess I should ask...does this mean you want to try to change yourself even more?

yeah. i thought it'd be best to just ask everyone and then kind of compare/contrast, you know. so hey, thanks for replying.

and... sort of? i mean i'm also getting steadily more nervous because i knew this was gonna be a big, complicated, scary thing. but that still didn't prepare me for it.

but i'm still gonna give it a shot.

Oh...you're welcome. That's a good idea. That way, you can look at what everyone has to say about it and make your own judgements.

Yeah, it's not a change that's going to happen in a day. Probably not even in a month or two. But the important thing is that you're going to try.

is there anything particular that i have to do? or is it one of those "keep thinking about it and it just kinda happens" type of things?

you seem like you know a lot about this stuff.

[...oh, wow, um. He actually...doesn't know how to answer, at first. He really doesn't want to say the wrong thing, after all...]

No, I don't think so. It's something you'll probably have to work out on your own. Giving yourself time to think about it is a good place to start.

It's hard not to dwell on the past. Moving past it will take time too. But it sounds like you're on the right track.

here's hoping, i guess.

thanks again. you've been really... good about this? i guess? i kind of expected people to be like OH GODS WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

and that hasn't happened yet!

That's probably because you're far from the first person to wonder about this sort of thing. And you won't be the last. I know it's crossed my mind before.

It's hard to talk about, especially with someone you don't know very well...I think it's pretty brave of you to do to begin with.

you think? i dunno... for me it was more 'i have literally no idea what to do and i don't even care about people knowing at this point'.

but hey. bravery. maybe so.

Ah, well...there's always that too, I guess. At least there's always someone on the Network who will listen.

yeah. people do stuff like this every so often, so obviously there's gotta be a benefit to it. now i know what it is.

I hope it ends up helping you. You'll figure something out.

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